Darkness

Ever notice that darkness seems to descend into your life in multiples? One huge life thing, then another then another. I call it compound crisis - where you don't have time to process one trauma before another is presented. So you shelve the processing to deal with the immediate. Think of a bookshelf - you put a few books there, then more, then some more.... eventually, it's so full all the books come tumbling down on your head, you're buried by them and can't find yourself or a way out. I've lived that collapse. I don't want to do it again.

So the challenge is to somehow manage to return to the shelf and read through the jumble of emotions - fear, pain, confusion, anger and more - to find a way to assimilate all of it into some sense of order, or at least into a form of something we can accept, often while feeling very alone and weary.