I Met Terror
I have never known terror before, I hope I never know it again.
We lost our 2 year old son yesterday. The back door to our home was left open by our eldest, and our baby wandered out. That moment we realized he wasn't in the house, was like someone ripped my heart out of my chest, through the flesh, muscle tearing, bone breaking. Sheer terror.
He's fine, we're fine now. The disturbing list of possibilities haunts me, but I feel I was given a gift... a reminder of how in seconds life can change forever... a knowing that my parents were watching over him... and an indescribable gratitude filling me.
*deep sigh of relief*
We lost our 2 year old son yesterday. The back door to our home was left open by our eldest, and our baby wandered out. That moment we realized he wasn't in the house, was like someone ripped my heart out of my chest, through the flesh, muscle tearing, bone breaking. Sheer terror.
He's fine, we're fine now. The disturbing list of possibilities haunts me, but I feel I was given a gift... a reminder of how in seconds life can change forever... a knowing that my parents were watching over him... and an indescribable gratitude filling me.
*deep sigh of relief*
posted by MysticSpirit (Sass) at 11:53 AM
10 Comments:
I've known that terror too.
When my son was a toddler I lost him in a department store. Nothing unusual about that maybe. Except that it was not long after the James Bulger case. All kinds of scenarios about copycat crime went racing through my mind. After a frantic search of the shop by myself and the security staff we finally found him happily playing in a corner and oblivious to everything that was going on around him.
He was only missing for maybe 5 or 10 minutes, but it was one of the most terrifying times of my life.
I'm glad it turned out OK for you, as it did for me.
i'm not looking forward to this day...though i know it will come.
i am so very glad he is safe in your arms.
Damn... No kidding that terrifying hun... Wow.
one time I didn't know where you were for a couple of days and.......fuck.
My heart leapt when I read that you had 'lost' your child, but then I saw that you meant 'lost' in the traditional sense. And I am relieved that all ended happily.
I think this is the very reason I am satisfied with not having had children. I don't know what I would do if a child of mine got sick or lost or came to any harm in any way. I know I am missing out on all the good stuff too, which sucks, but all I can do is trust that I made the right decision.
aw hon :( its the worst kind of terror huh?
sometimes i kinda wish that they dont cut that cord til your kids are like 20 or somethin :/ its like theres these little parts of me runnin round unattached - and im scared theyll get broken ya know?
im glad your little one is ok. i can imagine what you mustve felt.
love
Shit you scared the hell outta me at first!! Im soo relieved for you. Had that happen to me as well. My youngest at the beach, middle of summer, followed the waves down the shore. When I finally found him, he looked up at me ad asked where I went.. I cried on the spot.
So glad your babes alright!!
That made my chest tighten just reading it. I'm so glad that your little one is safe.
You poor thing. I am glad everything ended happily. When my daughter was 2, my husband took her out with him, and forgot to tell me. Thats before anyone had cell phones. Well an hour later he got home with her and all the neighbourhood was out in search parties, the police had been notified and I was a blubbering idiot, i was so beside myself. Ive never been that scared again. It certainly makes you realize how deep that love runs.
This terror, this fear, is the curse of being a good mom.
Trying to conquer the terror is a personal mission of mine.
So glad to hear your little one is OK.
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