How do you measure?
How do you measure the way a person loves you?
How do you measure if that love is enough?
How do you assess the things you feel are missing?
How do you measure if what is missing is too much?
How do you measure they way you hurt someone, when what you feel is love, but what you ARE hurts?
How do you navigate new territory, when you have a lifetime of history together?
How do you divide time, energy, investment amongst those you love - cuz we love many in many ways don't we?
How do you give freely when you feel you're not enough, or at least not enough of what that person wants and needs?
How do you measure the I in comparison to the we?
How do you choose yourself without feeling selfish?
How do you balance?

These aren't questions I used to ask so much.

I don't know if I've changed, he's changed, we've changed or all of the above.

I am beginning to know we are in very new territory, the landscape has changed, we aren't used to this terrain, it requires different relationship apparel, different tools, different approach.

Where's that relationship store when you need it huh? Just run out, buy the right tools for the job, the right gear to navigate the new place, the season.

I know it's about growth, evolution.... him, me, us. Well... we are evolving... we just don't know to what exactly.

He's a good man.