Weary

"It is what it is."

"What you resist persists."

"Feel what you feel, notice what you notice."

... phrases designed to help us cope, to accept things we cannot control, to remove pressure to do anything but be...

But when is it not so good to accept? When is it better to say NO, this is NOT ok?

Feel what I feel?

• I feel weary


• I feel as though I have very little control over my life


• I feel trapped


• I feel alone and yet I never have solitude


• I feel like peace eludes me most of the time


• I feel I can work to rise above it, I do, and get knocked down over and over


• I feel like my life is slipping away


• I feel like I must be missing something profound for life to be this way


• I feel like I'm failing my children


• I feel taken advantage of


• I feel unappreciated


• I feel like what I do is not enough


• I'm learning to believe that what I want is not relevant, that scares me


• I feel one decision may have started us on this road to chaos, and I don't know how to get back


• I feel like the fly at the window, who eventually ends up dead because he can't see another way


• I feel like every time we overcome the enormity of some of this, every time there is a glimmer of hope, something else happens to 'put us in our place'


• Today, I feel broken

-originally written 2010